||[Jul. 1st, 2006|05:22 am]
|||||i am the ho.||]|
|||||I am Idaho||]|
Minimalistic Art is fucking awesome.
It puts a big smile on my face for some reason.
I wanna work in a forensic lab :D
I have a SeCreT. I dont want to think about it. Its something that could be happy, and I dont want to mess it up. SSSHhhHHHhh.
Ambient Music is also very fucking awesome. :)
Oh I went off with Jenelle tonight. And Justin from her work...
anyways... we went to pryor street to get something. and guess who we saw, not only did we see Spencer, but I fucking saw my mom with Jon. Pryor Street is crack street. WE weren't buying crack, we were at a different house then the crack house. But she is taking him to buy crack again. What the fuck?! Im so tired of it. She is gonna end up dead because of him. I wish he would just drop off the face of the earth. And as for Spencer, he is too way in the hole to come out. We've all tried to help him, but it doesn't help. So whatever.
I miss a lot of people.
And I realized today when I was feeling out the eharmony personality profile, that I have buried myself in a hole away from everyone else. I am not who I used to be, I am not who I should be. What I want and what I am right now are two totally different things.
And its not right.
I am going to start talking to people, and not hiding myself away from society. I miss having so many friends and I miss trusting and enjoying other people.
See that sky up there? Its mine. Its mine to reach. Its mine to take.
And you can stay down here ... down here
But that sky is where I am going.
And I tried to grab your hand.
But maybe your back was turned, because you never took it.
And I will cry my tears before I go, but whats it like when I get there,
You will never know.